The break. I needed the break.
I lost my writing mojo for a little while, then I diverted my energy into getting some big projects off the ground; more about those later.
I’ve been thinking and evaluating.
Summing up what it is that is most important to me. I don’t think that this is a new thing, but more a change that has been slowly occurring over a number of months/years.
What do I feel like. I’m still not sure; the process is ongoing. What is certain, is that I’ve made significant progress. It’s so important to recognise progress because if you don’t, when you hit those inevitable walls, you’ll get stuck.
Walls are fine. I expect them. I accept how I’ll respond to them and that’s fine.
Walls are an opportunity to rest, place my back against them, and take time to appreciate how far I’ve come.
Once I catch my breath… push. up and over.
I also recognise my weaknesses and I own them. They’re mine! and so is the decision to overcome or succumb to them at any given time.
Even though I hate to admit it, I have a finite amount of energy. Being middle-aged, I recognise when it’s flagging. I spread myself too thin recently; something had to give.
My saving grace, was looking back at how far I’ve come.
While you were gone
I stopped the race to zero. The reason being, I made a life changing decision that threw it all askew. I cleared all my debt, then added to it, but in a good way. A necessary way. It feels good and not at all the heavy kind of debt.
It feels good because it is part of a plan that has an end date, which is so very, very different from the creeping debt that accumulates over time.
It’s part of a plan that took time in the forming, and whilst it was hard to see how the pieces fit together initially, I had it mapped out. It’s coming together.
If you’re unhappy with a situation, you have two choices; change it or change the way you think about it.
Stay focused, expect the knocks and roll with them; learn from them then push forwards stronger than ever before.
You only ever lose when you stop.
PS, thanks for sticking with me! x